Why hello anxiety, you’re being quite the bitch.
Last few days have me thinking about death again. My grandmothers death still haunts me and I’m scared of that moment happening to me- of not being me, not waking. I’ve written a post before about it, and rereading it brings no comfort.
Playing video games has only moderately helped, keeps my mind occupied. Watched a few kdramas and yet thoughts still creep. Heart jumps, I panic for a moment.
Sad thing is that I wasn’t like this years ago. Sure, every once in awhile I’d think about death, but seeing the finality of it first hand…
Today has been particularly bad. My arms ache, my legs ache, I’m running on very little sleep. I feel a little stir crazy, like I need to get outside and…I dunno, scream.
I’m worrying myself to death. :\
I’ve been contemplating finally getting a job (which requires me to get my drivers license). I’m 23, never had a job, after graduating high school I was supposed to just take a year off, then I got very sick for a year and then my grandmother was diagnosed as well. I ended up helping take care of her…
I need a group of friends or, one friend, at least. I need to feel as though I’m in control of my life…
What in the hell was that ending MHIYD?
I’ve been disappointed by a lot of drama in various ways, but I think this one takes the cake. Where is my YEH romance? YEH just needs to take another drama like Goong or Coffee Prince (no melodramas, please!).
I think another drama did this- the whole not showing what choice was made at the end, but I can’t remember the name of it. —WAIT. BIG! Big did the same thing. Basically Big and MHIFYD are on the same level of fuckery.
So, at this point Mi Rae said to Kim Shin: pay off your debt, who knows and to Se Joo: if you’re still interested in the future, who knows. I’m gonna take it that they all three met up at the store and decided on a threesome and to live happily ever after together. There. Ending solved.
Ratings dropped big time too. :\ YEH, I hope you star in a better drama next time. ;_;
!!! My gosh! That moment when you think you’ve figured out a crucial piece of information….but you really haven’t. ):
Possible spoiler (but it’s really not) for daily drama Soo Baek Hyang: Beginning of episode 1 shows a servant lying (obviously dead) on the floor, camera pans to the wrist and shows…a bracelet, significant? YES FUCK YES! That is Solnan’s half brothers bracelet! BUTTTTTT, that doesn’t explain the servant clothing since he’s a prince. BUTTTT if you look, even fake Soo Baek Hyang is not in her typical princess attire.
So, either Solnan accidently kills her half brother without knowing who he is, or Solnan kills him knowing who is regardless of being siblings, or it’s an impostor.
I’m really interested in seeing how fake SBH/Solhi betrays her country because she is paranoid as fuck- well, I would be too when you fucking take someones identity.
I also want more skinship between Solnan/CP. *begs*
I swear, MBC just needs to grant Viki/Dramafever a license for The King’s Daughter Soo Baek Hyang and Empress Ki because they are taking forever to sub this shit. Though the MBC America’s Facebook page has already stated that Viki WILL NOT get a license for Empress…
MBC Eng subs for episode 10 of Empress Ki hasn’t even come out yet. ): The sub floating around has to be DSS because I definitely agree some parts were quite terrible- like the last 50% of it. *shudders* The MBC subs I’ve saw/have for the previous episodes are really nice and excellent quality.
I wish MBC knew that not granting a license really limits the exposure of certain dramas. It’s likely that Dramafever will get a license after Empress Ki has finished airing. Better late than never, I suppose. :\ Definite appreciation to subbing groups/communities for all the hardwork they do just so we can have our drama fix!
I swear, MBC just needs to grant Viki/Dramafever a license for The King’s Daughter Soo Baek Hyang and Empress Ki because they are taking forever to sub this shit. Though the MBC America’s Facebook page has already stated that Viki WILL NOT get a license for Empress Ki. ):
I’m glad MBC is working hard to provide subs for fans, because lbr Soo Baek Hyang would most likely never get subbed…but for a drama like Empress Ki, Viki/Dramafever would have them out in a fucking flash.
I know DSS is subbing Empress Ki, but Google Translate is a bitch even with editing. Too bad WithS2 isn’t picking up either one of them. :\
Which reminds me that haru2subs is gone, fighting fan subs is gone, timeless subs is gone, and who knows how many others are gone. ):
If you’re not watching
King’s Daughter, Soo Baek Hyang WHAT ARE YOU WAITING ON???
It’s a Mon-Fri drama with a daunting 100+ episodes, but it’s so good. EVERYTHING about this drama is perfect! Just finished crying my eyes out with episode 15 and before that I had been laughing. You guys, give this drama love too!!!
I’ll even give you links!
:3 Plus it’s got Ha Ji Won’s Brother in it. ;] She’s also starring in Empress Ki! (Which you should watch too!)
I’m indulging myself with a much needed Jung Il Woo recharge.
Why yes, I am rewatching Flower Boy Ramen Shop AGAIN. :P
Is it just me or does the music seem incredibly LOUD? Especially in the beginning, it just seemed to cancel out the actors voices. I felt very agitated and violent that conversations were going on and I could barely hear them and yet the music was like LALA THIS IS MUSIC SWEEET MUSIC MUSIC YOU HEAR AM I LOUD? GOOD. LOL
Other than that, I dislike the forewarning older Mi Rae is shouting every episode. And I don’t think young Mi Rae is stupid for not heeding it. I definitely wouldn’t believe it if my future self came to warn me of my doomed future. I understand older Mi Rae- her future sucks, BUTTTTTTTT I’ll say that it’s her fault for sticking with him, for letting him sit on his fucking ass and mope. Yeah, the whole story hasn’t been unleashed (except for who the most loved person is which was just revealed), but for now, I’m holding to it that she’s at fault for at least HALF because it takes two for marriage. :|
It’s not, “Let me take a time machine and change my future away from the man I love and take somebody else’s soulmate because he’s got money” but “Let me do something about the NOW, let me start my change now and steer my life from the way it’s going now, little by little”.
Also: I find it incredibly sad that by changing the future older Mi Rae is effectively erasing the person she loves most. ):
Other than that: Kim Shin ALL THE WAY.
Se Joo, there’s nothing wrong with him (besides being a little crafty), but he needs to hurry out with the truth. I thought at first I shipped Mi Rae/Se Joo, but too many cute moments with Kim Shin has SQUASHED the competition.
Dear older Mi Rae: Please stop fucking with peoples futures. At some point, it’s very BAD for people to know future things (especially their own futures), right? Can we safely assume that near the end of the drama there will be minds erased because you just can’t know future shit? Something to think about.
You know you’ve got it bad when you can’t wait til it’s 100% subbed.
90% will do!
I didn’t think Empress Ki would be so addicting! Still pretty confused on the Goryeo period/era. I think this is the first drama I’ve watched that’s been this far back, so it’s definitely neat!
Golden Rainbow is also awesome! Started for the pretty, but in the end I think I’m staying for the story (and the pretty, lbr!). Kim Yoo Jung is so talented. They should just give her her own drama.
The only thing: the episodes are going to kill me. YTBLSS was 50 episodes, Jewel in the Palace was 54 (hello episode 48, I’ll finish you soon), I just feel strangled by the sheer amount of episodes. *sigh* I’ll guess I’ll just have to strangle myself to death then by laughing and crying for all the feelings these two dramas give me.